taking it easy

for the past couple of days i have been feeling absolutely exhausted. there is no question that there is some thing wrong with me, well physically at least i am used to people telling me that i'm slightly mad. all i have managed to do for the past couple of days is steady running, i just haven't had the energy to run hard. did an hour steady this morning thats the longest i done since wednesday. apart from that my life has been work, read books and sleep. went to the doctor on wednesday and he agreed that i need to be referred to the nurses for a blood test, where they will check me for everything. i may try and do the session on the tuesday night just to make the results look worse than they actually are, becqause obviously there has to be a cut off point where they refuse people treatment and its an all or nothing scenario, in that if your iron or ferretin levels aren't low enough than all they will say is to take the boots multi vitamin and iron tablets, which i am already taking any way and really they aren't strong enough for what i need.

maybe its just a phase i'm going through but i keep on having dreams that im going to take up triathlon over the summer instead of the track, but with the winter i'm having i don't know if i'll be strong enough by the time summer comes along. i'm hardly doing any long runs as i just feel so tired at the moment. another dream i had recently was that i found a fifty pound note on the floor and every time i picked it up another one appeared in the same place. and i also dreamed i pulled celine dion in a bar in london, but i think that is quite likely to stay as a fantasy