there must be something i'm better at then running

i tried rowing the other day and i have deicded to ditch it completely. i just didn't feel that it suited my mentality working as part of a team and i didn't feel comfortable with a lot of elements of it like being on the water for example. i nearly got pulled in to the water on several occasions because my blade got stuck under the water or because i just had no rythym. so bollocks to it i'll just have to stick to running for the time being or in other words stick to being shit at all sports. there must be some thing i am better at than running. i mean i am allegedly some one who has an above average level of fitness but my running abilities are approximately equivalent to that of a parapleigic with no legs. with that in mind how can any logical rational person say i am even up to the standard of a piss poor runner?

i'm going to enter a marthon next year haven't decided which one yet. the aim is to try and do it in less than 3 hours but i'll probably fail in that as i fail in every thing else in my life, so it wouldn't be any thing new in my life. not sure how wise that is as my knee has been giving me some trouble recently, but the fact is that i need a new challenge in my running career. edinburgh or taunton or loch ness are the most likely options. i have even flirted with the idea of doing the ilses of scily marthon or the isle of wight one although i gather that is quite hilly. the isles of scily one is 26 laps of a one mile course so that might be a bit boring. the other option open to me is stratford on avon. thats on the same day as london and its about as much as i know about it. i think the real problem with me at the minute is i need a fresh challenge in life. running 5k's and 10k's whilst they do undoubtedly have their benefits, they have lost some of their appeal although i may be doing one tomorrow week at clevedon. i have only a very vague idea how fit i am at the minute. i did a seven mile tempo run the other day which i completed in 47:54. over quite a hilly course. that was within 30 seconds of my pb so i must be doing some thing right but its still not good enough for the standards that i should be hitting. there may well also be a few halfs over the course of the winter to see if i can improve my pb but that wouldn't be the main objective. the big 26.2 miles will be the main challenge!